Monday, 12 October 2015

Game Over

In the past three years I've been in a constant battle of trying to enter in a world where I thought I belong. I guess it's really not meant for me.  It took me countless rejections and disappointments before I decided leave it behind and move forward. To be honest, it was just about last night that I decided to move on. It was a tough decision, but I have to do it for myself. It's one way to be genuinely happy and to live my life fully without any excess baggage. I have to free myself from all the burdens that I had for the past three years.

Today, October 12, 2015 is a good day for me to start all over again. Since it's Monday, a brand new week had just started. I'm leaving everything to God, all the burdens and the discomfort. I'm still in the process of moving on and coping up. Surely, it might take a while before I totally accept the fact, but here's the thing, I'm starting with the process. It was hard, but I have to.

I'm done with all the disappointments, frustrations and rejections. I am now moving forward with the desire of leaving all the unnecessary belongings of my life. I need to do this. I need to be strong. I need to be mature enough to accept that everything I want will not be given to me. It's really hard to stay positive when things are falling apart. I need to succeed with this. For the second time around, I need to tell myself that "I made it" once again.

All I'm asking is that the God above will guide me all throughout the process, just like what he always does. His plans, not mine.

Moving forward.
Keeping the faith.
Life goes on.
Living the life.
Let's do this.
Let's start all over again.

"But now I’m…
Stronger than yesterday
Now it’s nothing but my way
My loneliness ain’t killing me no more
I’m stronger"